I'm so angry, depress, unhappy, disappointed!!! The conclusion in life is no believing in any single thing, regardless of religious, family, dream, friends, relationship, hope... everything... anything... stupid Human Being!!! studying so hard? working so hard? performing so much? For what Fuck?We are all brainless freak struggling so hard! u know what's the happy ending? or should I say are u sure there's happy ending? NO NO NO, fairly tale don't exist. sad to say there will never be happy ending... u think u found the man u love? but will u love him forever or will he love u forever? He's the fucking old fart that make u cried most! u think u got the best job, perhaps the first few week when it's still exciting but as time passes by i promise, u will want to get the shit out of it! Would your juz stop cheating yourself! Big lier, Wake up. The definition in life is every single one will die one day!!! This is what we call "The fact" not happy ending it's THE END!!!

I can't stand it anymore! STOP telling me there's god, how amazing your life is, how rich r u or how many people fall for u, how wonderful is your love life, how many wonderful friend u have... stop it!!! nothing is forever! everything is fake!

Don't tried to change how I think becoz I want to stop all "Believing" Please don't make me believe there's hope and fall once again.

I'm left with no more strength to fight this anymore.

Finally back from my Macau, Hong Kong & ShenZheng trip, if u ask did I enjoy, the answer is no but my kids did... ... ... cannot really shop or visit my Fav Casino, sigh! The next time I do really hope that I can go alone.

It's even more hot & humid than Singapore, I can still remember the smell of sweat during the queue for ride at Disney Land, yuck!!! and the ppl there are so bloodly rude, cut queue, speak loudly & rudely.... I even quarrel with a someone ... ... puk! anyway it's over, there's good thing too, someone give out their seat to my kids in the MTR which I rarely see this happen in Singapore.

ShenZheng was not so good this time, perhaps due to the Hot weather, it make us even more frustrating, from the ferry to the location we r going took us 1 hour, than the stupid car was really the kns type, so freaking hot!!! the bloodly air con not cool at all (*_*)lll

Disney Land is fun but still the same old complain "HOT, HOT, HOT!!!!!!!!" everyone is like walking BBQ wings, wtf. never travel during SUMMER!!!