I called Raymond last nite... telling him I wan to settle down than he didn't seem to believed ha ha I told him something big, unexpected happen... my phone was mashed a few days ago sign... than he kept asking me wat really happen? but I don know how to tell him... anyway I'm not going to remember wat happen anymore... maybe I wan to start a small small business of my own when time is rite.... or maybe don do anything juz stay at home... I told Susan maybe maybe after CNY I will resign... than she kept quiet for a while... and tell me why not juz continue and see how first... so maybe juz see look see look first lol.

I am really dame fucking angry sad "bu gan yuan" really dame angry!!!!!!!!!!!! why this fucking world is so unfair????? today fought with a customer... it is already 2am they still wan to sing reason out with them but they still don understand than they start to throw cups... Fuck!!!!! wat the fuck they think they are!!! they say i'm a women they don wan to talk much with me, I am dame angry but I still try to talk thing nicely with them.... but they are really too much so I really cannot stand anymore so the quarrel start... he pick up something and throw towards me so I went out to reason out with him and really tell him off WHO THE FUCK U THINK U ARE so wat if I'm a women so wat???? so wat if he is a man?????? I am not afraid of him at all.... not all women are the same... i had gone through so many thing....he think he can eat me??? I don give a dame... at most wat can happen!!! die? or police come? or go to jail? I don care!!! so wat if I am a women? man are all useless!!! do they know how hard a women can be????? I had been supporting 2 kids by myself.... act as a mother father friend or wat so ever!!! I have been going through so many things..... everyday work day night day night!!!!! but man only know how to enjoy themself... REALLY DAME ANGRY!!!! kept repeating saying they don wan to talk to women.... I really hate all man they think they spend a bit of money can be so unreasonable, FUCK!!!! I really don give a shit.... God really got no eyes!!!!! so unfair!!!

every first expreience with lion is full of surprise and exciting... yesterday is his first day in primary school, I didn't sleep becoz I know I will definally over-slept, wake him up at 6, getting him ready and he really look so cute on his school uniform... than see him eat his breakfast... as we walk to the school I kept telling him "don this" & "don that" like wat my grandma did when I was young ha ha I think I am much more nervous than he is... than finally reach his school... guess wat? he is afternoon session... ha ha ha interesting!!! so we walk back @%$&# but anyway still quite funny... still remember the first time when his tooth is shaking, I hold the tread in my hand trying to tie on to his tooth, kept repeating to him don worry it wasn't painful at all... he is actually dame calm but... I'm not... I'm actually quite scare... it wasn't as easy as wat I thought, I juz can't bear to pull than he become impatientient and tell me how come so long so I just close my eyes and pull hard than when I open my eyes... see his smiling face without his tooth, he don feel any pain but I will not do this anymore... I think.... ha ha so scary!!!