I Hate My Life...

Sometime i kept thinking... do i deserve this type of life? Everyday work so hard than after work have to rushes to fetch my kid make dinner for them, teach them, take care of them...settle every small thing or big thing for the family... actually after thinking and thinking i realise that becoz i love my 2 kids that why i do so much and the real problem actually is ___ he did change alot compare to last time but ... i still think not enough, he cannot make me feel safe, and i think i don love him anymore since 1 year ago when i decided to leave him but becoz at that time i got my little gal i thought i can give him 1 more chance but now i really regret... he never cherish me in the past but after he lose everything than he come back to me, I find myself so stupid, staying for the seek of my kids... Someone ask me do i really like to drink so much? i replied him "Yes" but i know i drink to lessen my pain...

Drinking session @ DrAGoNfLy

Wow yesterday nite went to dragonfly with some guys ... feel so good I like that place sia... I was feeling very stress and unhappy in the day luckily nite time turn out to be highhhhh, I like that yian dao playing with his electronic guitar he really dame got character ha ha ha Kept drinking and dancing and drinking and dancing... i really enjoy myself so much. Actually the most surprising thing is when i went up stair to the toilet guess wat i saw... that man coming out from the dancer changing room so i ask if i could take a photo with him and he actually agreed and something even more surprising is he ask for my hp no. ha ha ha anyway he might not remember me and i cannot remember him too... wasted sia as i don practice one nite stand ha ha ha don know when is the next time i can come again? so should i wish for that ___ to request to go out with his friend?

DrInK... dRaNk...DrUnK

Wow! yesterday go Amber21 with ben,jon,cindy,mike,jason,kane,terry etc... dame high sia than we play card game and drink alot actually is because always kana me than i have to drink but really dame fun than after all the fun go over to Versus find adrian and his friend for 2nd round but of course 1st round more fun la... reach home around 3 am than today of course very tired... juz now went to settle this prc problem, luckily jon went with me that why i don feel as panic as to go alone... so now the problem is being solve and i have to go down with him when he work, if he make me lose face again ...

I THINK I WILL KILL HIM.. ha ha ha

Juz as i thought

Ai ya so sian sia... juz as wat is bothering me... the prc really got no skill so have to send him back to china... fuck man dame angry... than somemore everyday have to see the boss face and the worst is kana fuck by him... dame bloodly angry!!! now have to do replacement for him but i don earn a single cent... why like that? although pity the prc but actually is his fault too, don know say know than come already give me so much problem... stupid ass hole. hopefully the next one can really do than i can supply more worker for him... hopefully...

Sooooo high

Wow today dame happy sia... do a prc $$$ although dame happy but still hane to prepare for the worst now have to pray hard this worker can really work if not sure die until very ugly... if this one can work i can push more worker for him... wish myself good luck...