Jeff is always full of surprise... I received 12 stalk of white rose from him... than he came to fetch me out for lunch at esplanade... he is really a very nice guy.... but i juz don seem to have feeling for him... I am very unhappy very very unhappy... I think I really have a crash with someone who I shouldn't have... today "HE" introduce me a new guy he said he is a nice guy but I juz don seem to have feel for him... I know I don need a MAN but... .... Arrrr!!!! wat the fuck am I thinking or writing?????? why am I always making wrong step... WHY???? I really don have the heart to live on .... it is really dame torturing to live for someone else sake.... why can't your juz faster grow up!!! at least I don feel so sinful.... I'm tired .... very tired.....