He wasn't like himself yesterday... Jon said he saw him at 56... and ask me to call him but i didn't do so... I thought he won't be coming over... than he pass by... wanting to see him but still turn away from him... perhaps he drink a lot that why he said a lot of things, he had never said so much before... he even told his friend about us... when Patrick ask me what is our relationship, i really don know how to answer him, you know wat... I juz can't stop thinking of him... but nothing I can do... I have no rite to decide... I can't give him wat he wan... I somehow regret working at nite at first the reason working at night is becoz can earn more and faster than any other job but... I find it harder to move on... the thing that trouble me is my pride... i feel so small entertaining people who i don know or don wan to know... on Wednesday there's a demanding customer he buy me 10 LD Tequila pop but I must finish at one shot so I did wat he request than when it come to the last glass he pour in one full glass of Chivas asking me to finish it and if i can do so he buy me 2 more glass, I was very angry but i smile to him and finish it all... that feeling was bad... I told Jon if i can work as cashier only becoz 8890 need a cashier but he say i will be earning lesser if i do so, should i or should i not? maybe... see how lol...